rants.

   i hate my life now. i keep failing my tests in school and its just only the first few tests . and what is the very very worst thing that happened , you . i know you don't know my blog exists so i will say everything out .

   remember that we used to be quite close ? dont you miss that feeling. but now we dont even talk at all, you just stare at me and i just stare at you. tell me what is this ?!

   why do you hate me? after you heard my convos with the boys in class , then the next day *BOOM* you didnt talk to me anymore. TELL ME WHATS WRONG. is it even wrong yo like someone. and you're so mean. MEAN !

    and you said you hate me. then you tell me , whats with your friends ah? you think im blind and i cant see? you think im deaf and i cant hear what they say? you think that im STUPID to not know what they are trying to do? 

    but now someone said that you hate me and i choose to believe . so whats with all these huh? am i imagining stuffs? hallucinating ? dreaming ? or im thinking too much that i imagined stuffs happening before my eyes.

    i even told your friends what you said. they all were shocked , and they even said that you are not this kind of person. i wanted to believe them, but just looking at your actions i doubt so.

    and i dont know what to do. or who to believe . its just like i cant trust anybody now , nobody at all. what happened to my life :(  but i promise myself that i will be very very very happy everyday in school and i must keep my promises .

    but im tired. i had enough of this. maybe just let fate take its course. whatever that happens will meant to be. period .